"They say walk a mile in my shoes to understand what someone else has been through. That is not really good enough, or even close for my perspective. Walk that mile with my sweat, blood, and tears. Keep walking with my heavy heart, my memories, my dreams, my fears, my yearnings, my loss, and maybe you will understand who I really am." LDJ
Heartbeats by Lisa Johnson
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"As time goes by, young adults remain the same. Parents always make mistakes in their eyes , their home life is awful, and they demand to be treated as adults. Young adults forget an important thing. As parents we have been where they have to go, and some to hell and back. Parents are expected to provide the basics: food, clothing, education, and safe home. Parents should not be made to feel guilty for expecting children to work and learn the meaning of a dollar, honesty, respect, and being proud of their family. Growing pains last a lifetime in one shape of the other. I am 42 years old, and still haven't finished growing completely. I am not satisfied with my life just yet, so I cant feel sorry for any young adult who acts like his world is horrible at times. I think we give our children so much at times, that they are too blind and spoiled to see how lucky they truly are. There is more to life than what anyone realizes at that age. I remember when I thought my world ended the first time a boy broke my heart. I picked myself up and moved on. Then, my world crashed when I had to leave college for a year. Again, I made a new plan and moved on. Later years, I lost my first car, I had a miscarriage, my wedding band broke in half on my honeymoon, I was in 3 car accidents in one year, another miscarriage,my best friend moved away, and the list goes on. My point is this, there are no instructions in life and no guarantees. You think everything is important now and have no clue the important stuff is just beginning. All of us have had dreams to crash and burn, but we survived. You will get no where in this life giving up, putting others down, being a self absorbed ass, and forgetting where you came from. Embrace the good and the bad. Most of all be thankful for the people who have helped you all along, and just maybe you will become a happy person one day. Life is not supposed to be easy for anyone, and if it is for some. They will never appreciate it when things actually work out." LDJ
You have too much on your plate
"I have heard the term so many times, "You have too much on your plate." Well, I have an eight course meal of a load x's 50! I am not complaining and kinda love it. However, remember greatness and magic takes time. Never hurry an artist! We create with our soul and it should never be rushed." LDJ
"There was never a question if you would leave and hurt me. I just waited around for the when part to surface. Damn, I hate knowing the ending. I will be smarter next time." LDJ
"Sometimes the best things in life are free. Hugs, love, sounds of nature, laughing with friends, and time. Time is one thing you can never get back, so treasure it. Enjoy your time here and spend those precious minutes your way. The clock ticks a little faster as each day passes. I plan on not missing out on a single thing before my clock runs out of time." LDJ :)
I think life should be measured by heartbeats
"I think life should be measured by heartbeats. Life begins with anticipation of hearing your babies first heartbeat. The first time you feel alive is when you see that special person and your heart almost leaps from your chest. Later, you know you have a heart when it is truly breaking inside when you still love him and he doesn't want you. The first time you look into your baby's eyes and know
what true love is. The painful heartache when you lose a loved one. The moment when someone makes fun of you and your heart sinks. Then the time you won your first award and your heart was lifted so much you were flying. The anticipation of a friend coming home that you haven't seen in years and your heart is racing. There are two things inside you that no one can take from you, your heart and memories. You can share both for a while, but no one will ever truly know the many wonderful beats you hold or for those you beat for. Our lives begin with a beat and eventually that beat drift away." LDJ
Things you need to know about me that will NEVER change: I am driven, whether happy or sad I do get things accomplished. I speak my mind, so if you can't handle it go hang out with some yes men. I am voluptuous, plus, or whatever you want to call it. I will never be a size 8, and I have tried. Love all of me, not my jean size. I do swear and say fuck a lot. Sorry, I am a lady who talks like a sail
or sometimes. My sons come first, and everyone else is last. I am a friend forever if treated right. On the other hand, if you hurt me I will cut you out of my life forever. I am not very girly or a tomboy. I can hang with the boys as much as tease them endlessly. I am a rebel and follow my own rules, wear black toe nail polish, a bad influence to my own kids, and just don't care what others think. Politics and religion are not my cup of tea, and I have my own views or none at all. I follow the beat of my own drum. I love men and enjoy flirting, but it doest mean I have sex with everyone that I do this with. I am Southern, so you will hear me say honey, ya"ll, dumplin, sugar, etc. I may talk with a Southern belle accent, but honey I am no fool. I am a artist, photographer, and graphics designer. I am not competing with anyone, but myself to get better. Lastly, I am not perfect and I don't expect you to be. I do expect you to love me unconditionally just as I do you.
You know, I appreciate every compliment I get on my photos, or in person about my looks. I just wish I heard all of this when I was insecure, young, and single. I know that I am not the only one who fills this way. I guess it takes some many years to appreciate a gal who is not thin or have a perfect body. I am just glad and blessed some do now. So, I thank everyone from the bottom of my boobs, I mean heart that has said I am beautiful. HEHE! Love you all! :D The next video of for all the gals that feel that way or have in the past. You are amazing just the way you are! OXOX
"I am the kinda girl that wants it all. I don't want to be a part of your life. I want to be your whole world! I don't want to be an option, but a priority! I want time with us to be full of lighting and fireworks. I want it all and then some more! I want passion, tenderness, joy, and happy tears. I am smart enough to know that life is not a fairytale, but I want one hell of a love story!" LDJ
Pinata
"You know, I feel like a pinata some days. They are colorful, full of surprises and that's what you get after they have been knocked around a little. That's what life feels like for me sometimes. I have been shaken up and I am waiting on the surprise to come out. That dream to come true, or something out of this world finally to happen so know why I am here. There have been many close calls with death, and I am still here for what reason? I have said goodbye to so many friends and family members leaving this world too soon or they just left me. I refuse to waist a minute worrying anymore, but I wish I knew what else is in store for me. I guess we all do." LDJ/FP
Sometimes you have to stop apologizing for who you are
"Sometimes you have to stop apologizing for who you are and what you have done. You are not the first person to screw up while figuring out who you are along the way. You have to own your mistakes and get some strength from them. Everyone makes a wrong choice here and there in life and that is how we learn. The ones who judge you and can not forgive because of their own selfish reasons, obviously think they are perfect. Assuming you are perfect is essentially the same as being crazy. You are delusional and ignorant enough to the think you are not just like everyone else." LDJ
I like photos
"One of the main reasons I like photos so much is because they hold memories and time forever. If the person is no longer in your life or the scenery has changed. That one image lives on and every time you look at it, a part of that memory stays strong with every glance." LDJ ♥
"Each day is like the falling leaves of Autumn. One day may be vibrant and full of color. The other may be just a dull leaf and nothing special. No matter how many good and bad days pile up, just like the leaves do. You do learn something from it and move onto live another day. Whether you are jumping in the leaves and having fun, or preparing for the next season. We can't control our life anymor
e than we can control the weather. We can embrace it all and be thankful you were lucky enough to see that leaf from beginning to end. Fresh, colorful, inspiring, and left a wonderful memory." LDJ (A fellow photographer experienced a great loss and I was trying to say some kind or words of encouragement to him. These were my thoughts.)
I always tease hubby and say this when he says I whine. Honestly, all women do once in a while! I say this: "I state my case. Form an opinion. I am right/ your wrong. Enough said." HA! No one ever comes out smelling like a rose in any argument. We all make mistakes. I am a strong willed woman. I take charge, and get things done. It is my nature, but I am always trying to help someone while I do
it. I am not self absorbed or high and mighty. I just heard a quote on a tv show this morning that fit. "Being a strong woman is often a thankless job. Men are afraid or want to bed you. Women are threatened or jealous of you. The truth is a powerful woman usually stand alone in the end to fight her own battles." I do not believe this applies to anyone in my friends list past or present. However, I have witnessed it happen before. I am 42 and still growing up some days. I will not tolerate things that I used to, and I no longer give second chances to be hurt again and again. Not a Perfect 10
I still find it so odd how people are treated in this industry and in general if you are plus size, full figure, BBW, voluptuous woman. I have photographed as many full figured ladies, as I have average or very small models. Many of us are comfortable with who we are, and then there may be some who are more sensitive. I find it shocking how some people can be catty and criticize the weight of some
one with no remorse. One, we know we are heavier than the average lady. News flash! There are actually some men/women and photographers who are attracted and enjoy shooting a more full figured lady. We are aware of our size and you really do not need to point it out that we are fat, obese, or whatever. Also, some of us are not this size because we are lazy, eat all the time, or have a bad diet. Some may have low metabolism due to prescription drugs, gained weight after pregnancy, thyroid problems, physical ailments, etc. I am not trying make excuses for being obese, but don't judge someone and make your mind up about them without knowing the person. I have noticed that the larger ladies I have photographed are more kind, appreciative, and willing to learn the art of modeling. I have had the pleasure of working with men and women of every size. I have also photographed women who have undergone lap band or a gastric bypass procedure. Other clients have had cancer and lost weight, or developed other problems. I concentrate on the face more than anything when I photograph someone and I wish society would too. I also provide a service to tweak the body, if the client asks. I am always envious when a thin model, asks me to do the same when I wish I looked as good as they do. There is no "Perfect 10" in my eyes. You can be the most beautiful woman in the world and have flaws whether it be your egotistical attitude or maybe you have a weird voice. Sadly, the US is getting larger due to a fast pace life, being constantly on the go, and not taking care of ourselves. We put everyone first and that is the sad part, because as women our health and happiness suffer. With that being said, everyone judging you by your looks and then trying to be politically correct all the time. Well, it's exhausting! I find it refreshing how in the UK, Italy, and some other countries do admire or find the rubenesque figure flattering. I am not saying you have to like a larger lady's appearance, since we all have our preferences. I am insisting to show respect, kindness, and zip your lips if you have no idea what you are talking about. Many of us are either starving ourselves, or taking drastic measures to fit in a less forgiving world. I rather judge
"Reputations are just history in rumor form. You can change this to be whatever your want it to be and the choice is yours. Are you going to shine brighter than any star, or are you going to quietly fade away and be just like everyone else? I know I was born to stand out, and make all the rest watch with envy. Dreams do come true, even if it is not the one you originally wanted at the time." LDJ
This was the song that was on a part of senior video tape, we all participated in high school. Remember SHS alumni? Every time I hear this song, it reminds me of back then and it has also stayed with me all these years , during all my ups and downs in life. I truly believe we are set on a path by a higher power. Fate has played a huge part in my life. I planned on being a fashion designer, and along the way things were changed. I was diagnosed with bi-polar and forever my wor ld changed. I left school for a short time, to start over. I became a mom of two amazing boys, a wife, and later a graphic designer and photographer. I have always remained an artist, and the same girl inside from so many years ago. Some people think what I do is just photograph people, but it is so much more. I have seen so many clients shed happy tears over images that I have done for them. I have witnessed a shy lady come to life in front of my lens. I have made some hold their head up a little higher, after seeing themselves as I do. I have also made lifelong friends, and know many of my clients are there to listen or even hang out with me if I ask them. I would like to think that have made a change in this world for many people. It may not be something like ending world hunger or a cure to a disease, but happiness is a special trait some of us do not have. I am honored to be someone who can share that and if I make just one client laugh during a shoot or see how beautiful he or she is to me in photos, well I have succeeded with my job. When I am gone in this life, I hope everyone remembers my work and that each and every client made ME feel special. All of you gave me a reason to keep trying all those years. and never let anyone make me feel like I am not good enough. I may never be famous, but I know I have done something very few cant do. Connect with your client, create amazing art, and maybe a few times become a friend. Thanks to everyone who has graced my photo shoots and let me capture your soul's beauty with my lens. ♥
"We all spend a large part of our life trying to be what people expect or want us to be. Then, you are lucky enough to find someone so much like you, that you are just yourself. Somewhere along the way you question everything all over again, due to actions. The old saying, "Actions speaks louder than words." seems to carry a lot of weight now days. So, you think to yourself, who is this person? Someone you trust to show the best and worst side of yourself, only shows you what he wants you to see. Is it all a lie, or are we all really just trying to please each other. Pleasing, bargaining, cheating, and the list goes on. Feels like this life is more of a stage, and we are all actors choosing which part to play." ~LDJ
"Sometimes there is more to a relationship that just love. You need to crave that person. Blood pumping excitement when thinking about them. Physical attraction mixed with animal magnetism. Of course tenderness, sweet nothings, and a desire to be with them. However, the chemistry that began the attraction needs to be just as strong as it was at first glance, or feelings may fade. Wanting you is more important than the need. Desire is just as important as to love, and wanting to rip your clothes off is as exciting as that slow dance. Don't forget the moves that got you to your dance." LDJ
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